The Valley

 

Called to be a servant.

 

Its been said that when you give testimony on a topic, expect to be tested and tried in that area. So far I have found that to be true.

 

The Christian life is a battle. Sometimes its pure bliss on the mountain top. Other times, in the valley, we fall, we cry, we cling, or maybe we fail, maybe we walk away… We can be tried to our core. It was that small slip. That small its ok. Sometimes sin isn’t necessarily some wicked thing. Its anything we put before God.

 

Well, I was having a day. I was mentally and physically exhausted. I made a poor choice and chose to sit around that day. Then I did it again and again. Not even on purpose. I just let my guard down. I can feel the spiritual battle around me. Enough that I am thankful when God shows me to give me a good wake up call.

 

I can get caught up in me. Me myself and I. I forget, I am a servant.  I am created for His pleasure. Not my own.

 

Sometimes, I have just had enough. I feel I cant continue. I don’t want to continue. I pondered why I felt that way… I realize I don’t trust myself to not mess up. I want to leave this earth and hear those words.. Well done thou good and faithful servant. At the judgement seat of Christ, I don’t want to regret. I know I will have regrets of course, but I want to do my best. I want to give my all. I want to serve Him with my entire being. But, I am just a sinner. Prone to wander Lord I feel it, prone to leave the God I love. So many are falling away. So many seem to be walking away from God or live in this I love God but I can do what I want phase. How am I any better? What if I fall away too? I scares me. I try to be diligent and make sure that I am self reflecting and judging my own actions and motives. But I know me. I know my wicked heart. I long for the Lord. I long for heaven where I wont struggle with this awful flesh. I grow weary of this flesh and the power it can have over me when I am weak.

 

We have had many spiritual victories. We have been on the mountain top lately. The valleys are good. The valleys are where we grow. It is where the fertile soil lays. Its also where we are refined in the furnace. Its where we are molded. Its not the easiest process.

 

Oh Lord, the burdens are heavy. I can not even crawl forward. I am weak. I am unable. Lord, make me to stand. I must rely on You to carry me. To give me strength.

 

2Co 12:9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

 

2Co 10:3 For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh:

 

2Co 7:5 For… our flesh had no rest, but we were troubled on every side; without were fightings, within were fears.
2Co 7:6 Nevertheless God, that comforteth those that are cast down, comforted us…

 

1Co 15:57 But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

 

Isa 41:13 For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.

 

1Co 7:22 For he that is called in the Lord, being a servant, is the Lord's freeman: likewise also he that is called, being free, is Christ's servant.
1Co 7:23 Ye are bought with a price…